GOODBYE 2018....HELLO 2019

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2018 was a topsy turvy year for me. I experience some heartache, some heart break and cried a few tears, but 2018 also taught me some valuable lessons.

What I am not about to do on this platform, is front and say 2018 was a very bad year. It taught me how to be resilient, be at peace with myself and to mind the business that pays me.

In the beginning of last year, I was so excited to start this blogging journey. I mean, I was super hyped. I had my social content calendar in place. I had a cute little set up in my room for my office space. I even started going live on my Facebook page to announce my new venture. But by March....honey, I was through. Just as fast as my excited came, it exited stage left. There were a lot of contributing factors that caused me to loose my mojo, but let's face it....the common denominator was ME.

Last year put me face to face with my personal demons and I had to fight for my life. I started suffering from depression, I was having some suicidal thoughts, I didn't feel like my life was worth anything to anybody, including me. And I did all of this with a big old smile on my face. I went to work everyday, as if my life was intact, while all the time, I was falling apart inside. I wanted to fight alone. I didn't want anyone to know because I was afraid that my small circle would judge me, just like I was judging me.

So, I prayed and sought out help. I found a wonderful therapist and she has help me get through a lot of situations I thought was going to take me completely out. She taught me techniques that help me become more in tune with myself. I learned that I am tougher than what I thought I could be and to stop worrying about things I could not change (RESILIENCE). She taught me how to speak life into myself and have peace in knowing that I will be ok (INNER PEACE) and she also taught me that what other people may think of me, is none of my business and I should focus more on what I think of me (MIND THE BUSINESS THAT PAYS YOU).

So today, This New Year Day....I am in a better headspace. I see myself in a more positive light. I surround myself with people that love me unconditionally. I am also, a lot more open when it comes to saying what I mean and meaning what I say. My No's are actually No's and my Yes are actually Yes's. I am more confident in the decisions I am making for my life and I am falling back in love with me. Don't get me wrong...I still have some down days, but I now have the tools to combat that, which puts me in a better position to turn my low days into high days. I was searching for ME....and I found her in 2018.

2018 owes me nothing....so in 2019, I am ready to pursue my dreams and finally live my best life. If you are suffering from depression, heartache, family turmoil, or you feel like you've simply just lost your way...Please get help. Don't suffer in silence and don't think you can do this on your own. If you need help, GET HELP.

Thanks for letting me share my story....2019...Let's get it.

Peace and Blessing,

The InspireHER